Tuesday, December 28, 2010

New Years Resolution With A Twist

So it's 2011 and I keep hearing people talk about their new years resolutions. They all say the same thing "new year, new me". For some reason I just can't really relate to that phrase because I don't really want a new me. I don't want me at all anymore, I want God's spirit. I don't want it to be me at all this year or any other year that I'm alive. So I've reached the conclusion that everyone that was in my life in 2010, will not be in my life in 2011. My bishop always tells us to hang around people that celebrate us not tolerate us. But lately, I've been feeling like a lot of people I hang around just tolerate me. God is beginning to open my eyes more and more everyday, so now I'm starting to see people for who and what they really are. Therefore all I can do is pray for them, from a distance. Instead of trying to build relationships with people, I'm gonna focus on building my relationship with God. So I'm back to being by myself and I'm actually okay with that because really I'm not alone, Jesus told me he'll never leave me nor forsake me. So I figure, I'm okay with just me and him. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not going to just completely isolate myself, I'm just going to sit back and allow God to work on me and move through me. And I'm going to be still and allow God to send me a friend that will celebrate me and not tolerate me, that will pray with me as well as for me, and just build me up as well as me building them up and praying for them. Those are the only people I want in my life from now on. The bible says, "iron sharpens iron"so therefore if we're not sharpening each other spiritually, we don't have anything in common. So my new years resolution is to build my relationship with God and for him to take the very essence of who I am and make it the very essence of who He is.